A relationship is not what I want right now. What I really need right now is to get my shit together. I know for certain that I would be unhappy in a relationship right now, I’m a mess. Trying to find myself and trying to love at the same time are two things that just don’t mix. If we can’t be friends, then I’m sorry.
I want to find myself. To find out completely who I am, who I want to be, and strive to be exactly that. I want to do something good with my life. To have purpose and meaning in my life. To allow myself to be ambitious, but also to work as hard as I can to achieve all my goals. I want to accept myself for who I am and not care what others think.
I guess I just got lost somewhere along the way.
I can’t remember the last time I had an enjoyable sit down dinner with the family, I wonder if that will change today…